How long does it take to mend a broken heart?

I wonder how some heart could heal really fast as if it was never really broken at the first place..and if there really a harmless spell for me regarding this matters, please do just let me know. :-)

Call me pathetic but i heal the longest when it comes to stuffs like this..it's a viscous cycle that whenever i'm trying to forget some things, it came back to me over and over again. Like a stupid boomerang, my memory is cruel. It' haunts me in actually, hard to let go off. The memories and what it does to me, it affects me so much that i've never been this mentally, physically and emotionally injured in my whole life before and i'd like to be okay again.

Honestly saying that i've never really been into a "declared" relationship. My first one was when i was 15 and it was on and off for about a year. Ended for some reason and it took me quite a while to really let someone new in. Though it's puppy love i can see right now, it makes you who you are today so yeah. 6 damn years to finally let someone new in, to move on. And i'm wondering how this one would take this time. And he gives me a huge impact to be frankly honest..it hurts so much to all what he did to me. No words can really best describe this feeling i'm having.

Fooling yourselves by saying yes to few dates with someone new won't help. That's for sure, it'll only hurt that few particular people that they are hoping for things that you couldnt afford to give, which is your attention, and heart. So maybe all you need is a time alone, away from all of that. All i know it hurts so much that it's really hard to feel anymore.

Regardless of what happened in life, it's just storm come crashing you and it's going to make you stronger than yesterday. Although the pain that struck you is unbearable there's always a way for it, all i know is time and God is gonna lead you along the way.

I'm just curious how long it's gonna take to heal mine this time, we'll just see :-)

Farewel Diana!

Just another night out WITH PICTURES with my babies. Akim always bought his dslr around whenever there's an outing so yeah, looking through these pictures make me miss them even more though holidays have only started for roughly not more than a week. Well this is not really a night out but just to send Diana off to the airport. My favorite part of the day besides having to be all crazy and silly with them and the Famous Amos that they bought for me is that they actually fetched me from home! I hate to drive THAT much if you know me well enough. So yeah any outing that requires my presence, you know what you should do. Lol kidding. i guess i've been talking and typing so much and it's time for pictures :-)

Yeah we look decent on these shots i've uploaded..you should be there to see how idiotically crazy we were when we actually met. And it looks as if Azlie, Pat and I who is leaving KK since it's us who looks extremely "excited" on the departure lane. Well that's just us being us and nothing can ever change that. See you guys at September..which happened to be our semester 3. Take care!! =)

Cinta tiga segi.

Dear S,

My saddest, lost and broken being is missing you terribly. Be happy with her, that is all i ask of you.

Gold rush.

I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, Even over the longest distance :)

Goodbye freshmen year.

Semester two had been really chaotic, well maybe it's just to me since i've been "devoting" myself with some unnecessary crap that it distracts & injures me physically, mentally and even emotionally badly so I decided to leave it all behind when all i know is can barely survive anymore knowing the fact that it's heartrending to still holding on. It leads me to nowhere...and more to the darker side i can see which is not really what i want to see myself in the next 5 years. It's already too late when i realized that i should actually let go. Should've realised it sooner, so yeah whatever come crashing me i just have to deal and face it. It'll be ugly, that's for sure. Just bring it on :-)

So yeah, a change for a start. They say you are what you attract..so i'm gonna look "decent" so decent things will make it's way to me. Decent things as in good company, good result, good opportunities, good guy and so on. Har har :P

Black hair for a start.. say hi.

Will blog more for this 3 months of semester break, so yeah. Wait for it :P