30 day challenge.

I got this from Tumblr of course and I guess this can be a little something I could put in this dull blog so that I could at least have something to post in here. Any readers (if there really is any) feel free to take this thing and post it on your blog :D

Happy 2012!

Haven't make any post welcoming this brand new year so yeah, i guess it's never too late to make one :-) First of all, happy new year to everyone around the globe!
I know everybody have come up with new year resolutions and all..but I guess not me. I hope to be better, just that. I'll just go with the flow with the rest.

Talking about my 2011.. honestly, everything was different back then. Everything gets better each year so yeah a drastic kind of different if you get what I mean. Too many things so I guess I'm not gonna state it all up in here. All I want to say here is that I am really thankful for a bunch of awesome family and friends I have..thank you for participating in my life, and thank you Allah for blessing me by giving me those people in my life. With all I have and own, it belongs to Him and Alhamdulillah, thank you for "lending" them all to me. :-)

Talking about relationship, I still have no luck on that :P Been riding solo since birth..kind of. And I'm proud of that!! HAHA yeah, proud but I feel lame at times that everybody is about to get engaged, found love and happily crushing and all while I'm still..like this. Call me lame, I am lame :D It's just that when I am about to have a little bit of something with those people I like, it turns out...wrong. So yeah.

Uni life, finished my semester one, i know it was fast! Just entered uni and baaam, there u go..finished a sem already. Met bunch of awesome people too!! *wink* Sadly we don't take pictures on our ehem ehem outing. They're the best =) Talking about exams and all..I hope, I HOPE the results are all okay, amin! Gonna work harder for sem 2, that's for sure.

Life? It was okay, really. But I wish to do or get more..yeah in terms of "being better".. its not that I wasnt being thankful and all with all that I have now, I wish that there is always a change to something new or better..I got bored on things pretty easily so yeah, new thing fascinates me in a way. I'm writing as if anyone is reading. I guess I'm done! :D

Just another random picture I have to put on this blog :)

Just another clocks-ticking moment to be reminisced :)

I'm loving the fact that some last minute plan turns out to be awesome that it could be one of you best days in the year. So yeah this could be one of mine. Another outing with my girlfriends from highschool..they're the best =)
I might be a little off talking about this in here but really, the thought of going into Uni and get to find a bunch of people who might be as close and as good as these people, no you can't find them. I dont really know if it really just me or it really is that I find it hard to find good company for you to stick around with. Good as in like when I was with these people back in my highschool years, we did everything together. As in studying together, we eat together, for short I could name the situation as susah senang hidup bersama kind of friendship..but all i can see here people are using each other or even worse making you as their last resort.. I don't really mind tho, maybe it really is just me being anti-social freaks that I prefer to isolate myself but yea.. I still have another 3 years here. =)

So yeah this is another outing with my girlies =) from morning to night..it's exhausting but we had fun =)

Till then, toodles! And happy brand new year of 2012!

Too many outing, so little pictures.

Yeah, posting pictureless post might bore the hell out of myself that I prefer not to update a single thing since words might bore you as well. I'm talking as if I have any readers here, Lol. So this is going to be like my "once in a blue moon" post without picture. I'm just gonna type whatever that crossed my mind, no one reads this anyway..so yeah.

Currently I'm having my rough time forcing my dear self to "consume" as much notes and readings I can for my upcoming final exam. I dont really know what is wrong with me actually that I dont feel like...axcvbnojdiajajda no words can best explain this feeling. Let's just call it temporary laziness, hopefully it is really temporarily. It's like the toughest thing to do right now..its 3.30am for fuck sake. Please study laaaa Megaa.

I got bored on things pretty easily, just how I got bored with myself easily. Thought of doing something with my hair and I wanna feel brand new as well. Missing my crazy long and straight hair that I've been keeping for years. Yeah, YEARS and suddenly I kind of molested it this year by perming it. Don't really like it at first but yeah I'm getting used to it and liking it..kinda, afterall..no regret. I DONT DO REGRET :) Talking about regret, I actually regret the fact that I let you in, just like that but when I have come to think of it...yeah I don't do regret. Just lesson learned. Here we go, I'm crapping again~

The reason this picture is up is.........I don't really know actually. See how full-of crap I can get at times. To those who actually managed to put up with my crap these all along, thank you so much. I love you guys. Ahaha okay since I havent been ss-ing for decades, like really..so yeah finally this is the first one! I coundnt believe myself when I forced my forgetful mind to recall the last time I really ss-ed. So yeah this is how my hair looks like right now and I've thought of doing it just like this.......the best caption for this photo is, Just my eyebags and I.

Yeah like this! Look how wishful my thinking could get, which I hate it. I'm missing my old hair that I've been googling and tumblring for pictures like this, yeah my lesbian-me..look like as if that it is already back. Oh no.. Lol :P So yeah, dear mind, please make up your mind! Toodles, wait for my next rant. Waaaait for it.

Christmas Eve :)

I am just exaggerating about the the title up here, we do not celebrate Christmas actually but yeeea since everybody keep saying it's an Chrismas eve's gathering so yea, anything should be fine as long as I meet these creatures I love the most =)

So yeah, a short meetup and a night drive to a yummy Mcflurry, yeah that sums up the shortage of time we had for a meet up but I had fun! I've been missing these few creatures specially the tiny one, my one and only tiny lawyer since she's leaving for Manilla on the next day. I love the fact that I don't actually need fancy things to cheer me up, all I need is.. just them :)

I wonder why...

these talented dudes I'm in love with have the same first and last initial on their name which is J.M. John Mayer, James Morrison, Jonathan Meyers.. Lol, that's not the point actually. I just feel like sharing some of their videos up here but I am currently listening to this. So yeah, FEEL FREE to goggle them.. they are all like crazy talented. How I wish anyone would want to serenade me like this, Lol sorry you have to put up with my wishful thinking :P But seriously, is there's anyone out there? I'm right here, another part of the world waiting for any nice dude to sing for me, like this! :P

"If there's nothing left to lose, then what is this feeling that keeps bringing me back to you?"

Another crapping session.

Called me old fashioned, I actually take relationship seriously. Although I have been secretly FWB-ing around before this but I decided to quit on that already, like now. As we get older I finally realized how "too-late" I am already as everyone has finally found someone amazing to love and be loved...while I am still fooling and wandering around, messing with the no-string-attached kind of relationship which I finally realized that it actually leads me to nowhere. So yeah, I am so clueless and experience-less in "real relationship with feelings involved in it" kind of relationship. How to love, like really? All I know that it hurts too much that I can barely feel anymore. Lol.. how emo :D

Anyways I am gonna constrain myself from what I do best before, and learn to do what I don't do well..which is to love.

Wish me luck :)